Posted in Blogging with A Purpose, Family, Lesson Learned, Life, Lifestyle, Medical

Confession Time

Depression is something that I’ve struggle with since I was a kid and with PCOS, it makes it more likely that I will be depressed.card_01

It came back swinging this last week and I got about mid-way point from rock bottom and could feel the self-hatred inside my head. It’s hard fighting with yourself when you have three little high energy kiddos who just want love and attention.

Yesterday I had enough and splurged on almost a years worth of high dosage Vitamin D pills and some Vitamin B pills for extra energy.

This morning I feel better, but I know they haven’t kicked in yet. Yesterday night I found three random skin bumps and was determined that they had to be stress hives, because the only other time I get them is when I shave with a crappy razor or use a bad kind of soap–which I’ve done neither.

Tightness in my chest this morning let’s me know that there’s still some stress inside that has yet to be relieved. But, with some exercise, medication and throwing myself back into my Bible Study (and lots of time with the kiddos and Ryan), I know I’ll be okay.

imagesIt’s been a couple of rough months and it all kind of hit this last week. So much stuff and a lot of it, no one will now, because it’s not mine to share.

But, this is mine–and it’s reality of life. Depression sucks. It can hit anyone at any time. Whether it piles on slowly or all at once.

I can’t determine if it’s from the last couple of months or because my subconscious (cause my brain is still in May) knows that it’ll be my little sister’s birthday this next week–and that means another one without her.

Whatever it is, I am thankful that I have my little troop of men to help me fight through it.

We’ll defeat it with vitamin D, laughter, hugs, time together–and enjoying that school is almost out, which means less chaotic mornings and more cuddles with cartoons. 🙂

These next few weeks won’t be easy, waiting for the pills to kick in, but I know it’ll be worth it.

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Posted in Blogging with A Purpose, Decisions, Faith, Life, Lifestyle

Re: Facebook not Fakebook

This is a status that I put on Facebook on Sunday and I am choosing to share it with all of you here, because, well, you see a very real side of me too.

I won’t lie and say life is always good and I won’t only give you the glum stories.

If I have something to say, I’ll put it out there and you can take it or leave it, so here it is… Continue reading “Re: Facebook not Fakebook”

Posted in Food, Home, Life, Lifestyle, Work

Tuesday–Coffee Relapse

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I went for a healthier breakfast today–usually I eat a bunch of quesdillas, but since I started entering my food in an app yesterday, I went over on calories and I didn’t want the strawberries to go bad. I had a turkey stick, because I’ve been told to up my protein levels in the morning.

I haven’t had coffee in a very long time, but I tried it this morning. About 1:30pm, this is how it was going, I made it with probably half of the amount of cream I would

normally use–again the calorie thing… Continue reading “Tuesday–Coffee Relapse”

Posted in Decisions, Facebook, Lesson Learned, Life, Lifestyle, Mid-night Mishaps, Morning Mishaps, Opinion, Parenting, Past

I am the Mom They DIDN’T warn you about.

I wrote a really long post yesterday and ended up trashing it becausa6936164ac15aabd951acd5bc29a36e8-300x210e I couldn’t get the words right. And I am not sure I will this time either. But, I am gonna put this out there any way.

So, here it is… we all have those people on Facebook who tell us what a great parent we are, but do they truly know? They are hundreds, if not thousands of miles away and judge us by what appears on Facebook. Continue reading “I am the Mom They DIDN’T warn you about.”

Posted in 2015, Dave Ramsey, Debt Journey

Recap: Jan-Mar

Z is “napping” at 7:30 at night, so I wanted to do a quick recap of the last three months before I start blogging about our Dave Ramsey journey.

I love watching YouTube channels and one of the most recent channels I found is actually why I have decided to start blogging about it.

So, here goes how the journey started, etc.

Just before January, a childhood friend added me to a couple different groups. She added me to the first one called “No Spend Challenge” (via Facebook) and a handful of other Dave Ramsey groups and we hit the ground running. I had gotten laid off from a being a gymnastic coach after working 4 days in a month–with family up here and all the kiddos sick, it just didn’t work out. But, that wasn’t going to hold us back or anything, as it was all extra income.

We started January with the No Spend Challenge and cut out as many unnecessary things as possible. It wasn’t a perfect month, but we saved over $700 and was able to get our $1,000 for Baby Step #1 of Dave Ramsey’s financial plan in place.

February rolled around and we took a family trip back to our my “hometown” and we spend some time up there, so we didn’t do a No Spend Challenge month, but we were definitely very aware of how much money we blew and it was kind of hard. But, we came home and in March, we used some of that money to finish paying to file adoption papers for Mr to adopt L.

As I mentioned before, last month, we ended up having to hospitalize A for a week (it was horrible!). We went in for a doctor’s appointment Monday because we thought he might have pink eye and his O2 levels were super low (84%). He and I were rushed down to the ER where I had to use a phone to get the keys back to Mr, as we were transported to a Children’s Hospital and were stuck there until Friday afternoon.

We left with A feeling a lot better, but L, Z & I had ear infections–Z had a double (poor kiddo). But, let me tell ya, that whole situation would’ve been a lot worse without the Children’s Hospital and our EF (emergency fund). We were able to focus completely on each other and A. We didn’t have to worry about coming home to cook all kinds of different meals, we just grabbed what was close and ate down there. We were also able to have Mr down there for the whole time (which was a HUGE relief for me) and covered his missed time with the EF.

This last month we raided our savings accounts and our most recent paycheck and got our EF back up. We even got to put a little more towards our current snowball debt (which is awesome!).

We are actually doing pretty well this month, but we’re waiting for the medical bills to come in the mail to find out what we owe.

We also found out about a possible student loan that we skipped over (just forgot about), but we have paid off over $7,300 so far this year. Our goal is to pay off at least $10,000 by the end of the year (we have been averaging about $300-500 a month), which shouldn’t be a problem. But, we’ll see how things are looking at the end of the month (medical bills should be here by then).

Posted in 2015, Debt Journey

New Journey

Oh my goodness, things got busy around here.

November-December, we were all sick and had family in town. January, L started preschool and we (re)started Dave Ramsey’s “Get out of debt” plan. February-March we were all sick again. We caught some 24 hour flu bug and then colds. The cold turned into pneumonia where A was hospitalized for a week and then Z, L & I had ear infections.

Oh my gosh it’s been insane! But, we’re all healthier, home now and loving it.

I have a list of goals that I am going to start working into life and one of those is to get back into blogging. It’s very therapeutic–believe it or not. But, the rest of what I had planned for today will have to wait until later.

Z is crying and I am going to guess it’s time for lunch and a nap for him (even though it’s almost 5pm).

Lots more to come later.