I’d like to make myself believe That planet earth turns slowly. It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay Awake when I’m asleep Because my dreams are bursting at the seam.
–Fireflies by Owl City
Last night was a night when I couldn’t sleep. Laid on the couch and tried to close my eyes. Tried and failed miserable. My mind was going crazy. Tossing and turning thoughts. None that seems very productive.
So, I got on Facebook and started talking to a friend. Had a great conversation.
And then… It happened. What is it? I don’t even know. But, I found it… It scared me. And now I feel sick to my stomach… I am hoping it’s the alternate that is sitting out in the work. But, even while I am sitting here, my stomach is sit turning… I feel like I am gonna be sick. And after this all hppened last night, I was glad I was staying home. But, I am not. Because I have amazing family who does their best to help me out. So, my sister volunteered to watch Landon. Which is wonderful!!, because I really can’t miss more work this month. But, I am going to… Tomorrow. But, honestly, it scares me… If you know what I am talking about, keep it to yourself. Please! If I tell you when you ask, cause I guarantee someone will, it was because I trust you. And it’s not something everyone needs to know. It’s personal. And I am not ready to face it yet. It’s not something exciting. It… I am not sure…
One step at a time There’s no need to rush It’s like learning to fly Or falling in love It’s gonna happen when it’s Supposed to happen and we Find the reasons why One step at a time.
—One Step at a Time by Jordin Sparks
Pretty much what I am going to be doing this morning. If not all day long. And I am going to tell myself that there is no rush!! So, here it goes. Time to start this day. Just gonna tell myself that:
Everything is never as it seems… and Everything happens for a reason…
Then, maybe I make it through today.
Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.