I would love to feel warm right now. I hate always being cold.

I hate feeling depressed at times. I need to get my sorry ass out of pity myself and bullshit mode! I am fucking tired of it! I want to be able to be one of those happy positive people that people never know to be sad or negative. What happened to her?

I want guys to get over shit. And stop… I can’t deal with it any more. I almost don’t wanna deal with it. Sigh… Gotta calm down. Getting close to tears, low blood sugar, and making myself sick… Vent more later.