Hit 4 years.

To my family, I leave my thoughts and love.

To my friends, I thank you for standing by.

To my sister and best friend, Shava, I love you. And miss you.

To Skot, you will always be that one person, who helped me.

To them both, you two changed me. Maybe it took me this long to realize it, but you two are amazing people! And I will never forget you!! I love you both so much.

I feel terrible because it hasn’t even hit this year. I didn’t cry a tear. I realize what happened and I hate it, but I can’t seem to cry and let anything out… I am sorry friends and family. I guess I just feel like shit cause I am here. And I am managing to actually live without them. It’s crazy…

Any way, gonna go enjoy the rest of the day… All 10 minutes of it. Night.

3 thoughts on “Hit 4 years.

  1. Sweetie, it’s really hard for it to hit. Don’t feel bad or apologize that you’re grieving in your own way. I hope someday you can let the bad feelings out some in a healthy way. We all kind of hate that it’s been this long and we’re okay. That means we’re healthy and alive.

  2. You know you’re supposed to go on and heal up and live after something like this…and you try so hard to do that…and then when you realize that it’s actually working, you feel guilty all over again. (((hugs)))

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