Ending the year. </3

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Thinking about another year being over is a bit of a bittersweet moment. I look back at the year and all that I have gained and I feel so blessed! Yet I look back and see areas where I wish I had done something different, I wish this and I wish that… I don’t want that for this next year.

I like most everyone else who lives in this world and/or blogs am talking about a New Years Resolution. I have several of them. Like most people, I need to make a budget and stick with it, eat healthier/start cooking at home more, etc. But, for me personally, I want to be done smoking FOREVER!!! I’ve realized that I went from cutting, one addiction, to smoking, another addiction… But, honestly, what’s the point?! I don’t want to have an addiction or if I did, I want it to be exercising or something. I don’t want to move to drinking or anything else that is unhealthy and just makes me get that few moments of high.

I want to loss all self doubt!! Easier said than done but, I am sick of second guessing myself. I want to gain self confidence. I want to know that if someone really wants to spend time with me or be my friend they will. I don’t want to feel like I am bending over backwards to please people. I am going to worry about providing the best life for my boys and what they need and what I need to do to make sure they are taken care of and leave the rest to God.

I want to be financial stable. Of course, who doesn’t… But, I want all my doctor’s bills, etc. paid off this year. I want to get all caught up. Start saving money so my family and I can go on a family vacation this year.

I want to be okay when my husband raids or wants some him time and plays computer games and realize that he just needs down time. It’s not that he doesn’t want time with us, he just works really hard and needs to relax. I don’t have to be jealous.

I don’t have to do everything…

I want to make friends. I want to find couples to hang around who will provide good feedback for our lives. I want to learn how to not get so overwhelmed and stressed out. I need to learn how to not let the small things bug me. I need to learn how to just enjoy life a lot more.

I want to make a bucket list for 2012 and start working on my life bucket list.

I want to make something of myself. I want to find a good way to make money while I finish school. Something I enjoy and a way I can still be there for my boys.

I want to do all I can to make this year the best year I can.

I want to learn–keep reminding myself that sometimes–it’s okay to move on. Sometimes it’s even necessary.

I want to grow closer to my family. And meet my new family.

I want to do what I can to make this a God filled year.

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