I spent the better half of today (part of yesterday too) freaking out about making a career for myself and being more than a friend who watches a child.

I’ve tried to watch more kiddos but, it seems like everyone wants nannies here. Getting your name out is hard.

I feel like I’ve been waiting forever for this couponing business to get rolling. I was going to have CDs or flash drives this month but, instead we’re going to be making an app to help people coupon and save money. It’s a wonderful idea, don’t get me wrong. But, being on the other end, waiting for something, stuck in the unknown–it’s hard.

I don’t know when anything is going to happen. I don’t know how to get started–I’ve been waiting for an outline, a script, the launch party, since before we moved here. I am here still, empty handed.

After complaining all day and I mean basically all day to Mr., I finally realized, I am the one who is going to determine my future. Me! I am done waiting for some script and some outline that may possibly my not come for months and months. I am going to start helping people save money, the way we have.

We don’t live on food stamps any more, we bought ourselves a couch from Rent-A-Center that we will be paying off this month for there 90 days or less (same as cash deal). We’ve  done it. Now, it’s my turn to help others.

I AM DONE WAITING!