This is a status that I put on Facebook on Sunday and I am choosing to share it with all of you here, because, well, you see a very real side of me too.
I won’t lie and say life is always good and I won’t only give you the glum stories.
If I have something to say, I’ll put it out there and you can take it or leave it, so here it is…
I’ve seen a few people recently, who have said that negative things don’t belong on Facebook. So, I am gonna put this out there now and you can unfriend, unfollow–whatever you need to do and we’ll both be okay.
I post a LOT sometimes and it’s not always positive. But, the truth is, I am not always rainbows, butterflies and unicorns. I try to be, because I like to ignore the awful things in this world. But, when they come knocking at my door, I’ll be the first person to admit that life can hit you and hit you hard.
90% of the time that I am “negative” is because I fighting within myself to be positive. Sometimes you have to purge your insides to others to be able to keep going. I learned this the hard way.
I was raised to not talk about anything–a lot like “What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.” By the time it was time to talk about things, I didn’t want to or didn’t know how to. I turned to self mutilation, eat disorders, drinking, smoking and other things–nothing worked. I joined a group at church and made meet some of the greatest friend a girl could’ve ever asked for. In the group, I learned to journal. A friend, turned me on to poetry. And words, having an outlet has been messaging grace.
So, if my negativity bothers you and my over posting, I am sorry. I don’t do it to annoy anyone. It’s how I make it through the day sometimes and socialize.
Lately I’ve been turning to reading the Bible and sharing it with you here. But, some things–even some things I don’t share with you. I keep them to myself or a few family members, as they’re not mine to tell.
So, excuse the real life posts. But, it’s not meant to be negative. I post to purge and try to pull myself up and hopefully remind people that they’re not alone.
I try to be as real on Facebook as I attempt to be in life.