Christmas Spirit

Made it through a week. It may seem silly thatĀ this week would mean so much. But, in all honesty, it does.

This is the first week I don’t remember shaking when the boys came home. I don’t remember shaking on my way to work. I don’t remember being super nauseous and having to force myself to eat.

Perhaps it is because I had a stupid cold–no energy available to go anywhere else and the people that bother me at work weren’t there (probably not it).

Don’t get me wrong, I am stillĀ exhausted. Continue reading “Christmas Spirit”

Inadequate to Myself.

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I have to stop comparing.

I see people building businesses, going to school–following dreams and I feel like I need to do more.

But in reality, I am running on fuses most days, until I cuddle up next to my best friend every night.

Dealing with fleas, kids that hide homework, working odd jobs, and even though I can’t keep up, I feel as though it’s not enough and I need to try and do more.

Realizing that I am prioritizing what I need to. I quit my job in December because I was giving my all to work and had nothing to offer the boys or my marriage. I am doing what I need to to be home and suck up all the time I can with them–to keep them safe and fed.

It’s not what I had planned or where I thought I’d be, but I wouldn’t trade it.