Starting my #futureboards

Drunken Truth | Words, Drinking quotes, Funny quotesHere we are–Monday morning. Sitting at the day job, watching a TV show because there’s nothing to do–not yet–but, I’ll find something soon.

I’ve been trying to do some work on my mental health and self growth. But, I hit this part in life where I realized I was trying to fit myself into this mold of what I thought I had to be and what companies I needed to be with. My friends are into makeup, weight loss, etc. But, you can’t market something that only half your heart is in.

Saturday night I had a few drinks and finally realized that I’ve been missing something in my soul–whether it’s sharing life here, being able to create, reading a book for self growth, or something else. So, I am going to attempt to reset my mindset as far as “what I need to be” and go after “what I want to be” and “what I want for my family”–like #futureboards tells you to do.

Pin on Quotes and ThoughtsGoals for the future so far:

  • Get my weight back under control. I still have 60 lbs from E that I need to lose at least some of it. My weight is an issue now that I had preeclampsia with E.
  • February 2021–we’ll be out of the apartment we’re in. My goal is get find a house for my family to buy, but if nothing else, to find a rental house. With COVID, we need a yard for the boys–a way to get sunshine. Depression is real!
  • Keep writing in my prayer journal–each one has been answered so far, but I wanted to keep at it. I am good at verbally praying with things are rough, but I want to keep doing it to improve my life and my family’s life and not wait until we hit rock bottom.

Good things are going to happen for my family. At the beginning of 2020 I told myself that I would make the best of this year regardless of COVID–so, I am gonna do it. Little by little, 2020 will still be a good year for my family and for any of my friends I can help.

Bad Things Happen Quotes. QuotesGram

Having Faith

2 days after Christmas, I had enough of my job and I quit.

I had taken our youngest in to Urgent Care and he had pneumonia. It has been sickness since I got back from vacation in September and I was already in trouble with attendance at work and didn’t want to deal with it any more. So, I pulled the plug.

I’ve been trekking along since, doing Uber Eats and Uber Rides to help make ends meet.

Part of me quitting was making myself push to have more faith in my Higher Power. I have always believe that He is there for me, but actually having faith–that was another story.

It’s been ups and downs, but my marriage is better and overall, life is smoother.

I’ve been the most blessed when I let everything go and just trust.

Examples include…

The boys and I out doing Uber Eats runs and trying to get the money Instant Transferred from Uber and the funds being put on hold. I had a negative balance in the bank account and now the money I needed was not accessible. I called Mr. to see if he had any ideas. Then I called my mom and my sister, bawling on the phone. I felt horrible and desperate and like a total loser. As I was on the phone, an older gentleman came over and asked if I needed help. I told him thank you, but no. I was getting it covered. I was on the phone when he came back and asked if I needed money or…? He said he was the owner of the building, the people just rent from him. I explained my money was on hold, paycheck comes in tomorrow, I was on the phone with family to get money for gas. I just need $5 in gas to get home.

He came back and said he paid for $10 and pumped it for me.

Another lady came over to see if we needed money. I told her no, but thank you. I get paid tomorrow. My money is just on hold and I just need to get home. The gentleman said he was getting us gas, she thanked him, and headed off.

Needless to say, I bawled some more. The owner told me not to cry, we’ve all been there. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Later that night, my friend/roomie brought home an assortment of Legos from work and gave them to us. Needless to say, the boys had a blast.


Earlier this week, I was doing my first day of Uber Rides. It was my last ride before going home. I picked her up a little ways from our house and drove her where she needed to go. She was talking the whole way and I loved it. She was super friendly and just so quirky–I couldn’t help but love her company.

As we were driving, she ended up offering me a job. I don’t know if it’ll go anywhere–I did call her on Monday and sent her my resume, but who knows if it’ll go anywhere. Even if it doesn’t, it was a memorable experience.

I just have to keep reminding myself to keep the faith. It’s not always easy and most weeks I have no idea how we’re going to make it until I sit down and write out the budget and oddly enough, we always seem to come up with enough money to keep going.

We haven’t cut the giving we do, our little give back to the world, and I don’t plan to. I feel that keeping them going is believing that we will make it, one way or another. 2018 will be the year for a wonderful marriage, a stronger faith, and a more beautiful life for my family. ❤

Image result for have faith