Trying to control me like some kind of Barbie.

I am getting to the point where, I think, I am finally learning who I am. I am still learning, so don’t get me wrong. I am not exactly who I want to be. But, I am working on it. I am  not perfect by any means. But, I am learning to be myself and quit with all the silly people pleasing ways.

Believe it or not, I have been a people pleaser for so long, I think I was loosing myself. I sure I have lost myself a couple times to being who people wanted me to be. And then I got to the point where I didn’t know who or care who I was just I just did whatever. I am sure we have all been there. But, it’s true with the say that people don’t truly learn who they are until they reach their early twenties, because I have even hit twenty yet. I am not sure who exactly I am, but I am getting more comfortable just being myself. I’ve learned years ago just to make people like me or think I was cool. I felt like I had to lie to keep friends. But, you know, those few people who matter and I feel that most comfortable around, I haven’t lied to. I am getting more comfortable being exactly me and fessing up to mistakes. I am not proud of some things. But, I am not going to lie about it either. I’ll put myself out there, open book, and if you love me, GREAT! You’ll probably be one of my best friends. If not, I am okay with that now. I am done trying to make everyone happy. I am going to live life and do my best to be me, from now on.

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.