Winding Evening

Ah… Evening is starting to wind down a little. It’s been 13 hours of going with the kiddos. The little boy I watch was here until 4:30 but, Z didn’t take his afternoon nap for as long as he usually does so, I am over exhausted. Still have dishes and laundry waiting for me. But, I’ll get to them here shortly.

Hubby is stuck in traffic because there were 2 accidents on the freeways so, it was going to take 70 minutes to go 4 miles–downside of living in the “city” but, not in the same city that he works. He sounded a bit overwhelmed and grumpy so, decided to order some Pizza Hut. I got him some buffalo wings (with bones–ew!) that should help cheer him up.

My body is aching so, I am hoping he will help me figure out the hot water heater after the boys go to bed but, before he does or I am not sure my body will be functioning tomorrow. I have been holding Z a lot and putting him to sleep by walking him around and such but, my body isn’t used to it because he wouldn’t fall asleep that way before, I always had to use the bassinet.

Well, I am definitely glad that I didn’t have any extra work today–aka articles to write–as I am not sure I would have been able to do it without caffeine. I did make it through today without caffeine. But, my headache was back this afternoon/evening so, after things start settling down a little more, I need to get in to see a chiropractor or get a massage. Not sure how I am gonna do it since I babysit Mon-Fri from 6-4:30 but, maybe the chiropractors down the road will be open until later. I’ll have to look into it later but, for now, I’ll just plan on picking up some Tylenol this weekend and finding some exercises/stretches to make them go away.

Hoping that Z and I can get some good sleep tonight and almost wish he would sleep until 8 but, I know that won’t happen. Since Mr’s schedule changed, we are usually up by 6-7, at the latest. Z is used to the last couple weeks when Mr had to be at work by 7-8 so he was up by 5-6 and Z would join me in bed and nurse and then fall asleep again. But, now we don’t. Which is okay–just messed up my showering schedule too but, that’s what happens when work schedules change, we all readjust.

Oh well, laundry needs shuffling so that Mr will have clothes for tomorrow and so that L will have clean clothes to wear tomorrow and not fight me as much to put them on, since they will be green and I can convince him that he’ll be dressed like a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle–as that is his new fad. Oh the things we do for the people we love.

Well, time to get busy or at least go sit on the couch with the boys while they watch the turtles until Mr and Pizza Hut gets here. I was hoping to bathe them all tonight but, Mr isn’t going to be home until late so, we’ll just have to do it tomorrow with a Redbox movie, popcorn, a late night, and some cuddling on the couch.

TGTIF!—Thank God Tomorrow Is Friday! Enjoy your evening folks.

What’s for dinner at your house? Kiddos have any favorite fads right now?

Unpredictable.

Courage is the power to let go of the familiar. So, I guess it’s time to be courageous. :-/

My life as I know it is changing. And with that I will determine who I want to be and what I want to become. The key is learning to move on to things that are not so familiar. But, could be better. It’s not that I want to leave all that I love and know. But, when things happen to alter your life. And you suddenly realize that you might be going down the wrong path, you must learn to grow up. When you become a parent, it becomes all about your kid. Everything you do, is for them. It’s not about how you might want to sit around and party all night long or whatever, it’s about how your kid needs a bottle to go to sleep. A diaper change to avoid a diaper rash. A toy to play with. Β It’s no longer about you, it’s about the other little one, innocent, adorable, sometimes a pain in the butt, little man. πŸ˜€

When you meet someone who can cook and do housework–don’t hesitate a minute–marry him. πŸ˜€ I love looking at wedding pictures. πŸ˜€

He he. I get to look at all my friends getting married and I am excited for them. They look so happy and everything. But, at the same time, it gets old seeing everyone happy all the time. It gets old. Don’t tell me that I just need to calm down or relax or that give it some time and someone will come around. I honestly, I don’t wanna hear it. You might be okay with waiting for someone right now. But, at this point in time, I don’t wanna. Lol. I know it should retarded and I am probably throwing a little kid fit. But, at the same time, I am okay with just being me. I don’t have the energy to put into a relationship. Or the time. I don’t want one at the same time, because I also often see that people get divorces, not trying to make you depressed, but eh… That’s kinda how I am a feeling. πŸ˜€

Some think it’s holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it’s letting go. And some times love, means you do just that. So, I am letting you go.