Blogging with a Purpose-Week 2

Well, took me a few extra weeks but, I believe I have figured out 10 things I can’t live without– 1-10 being my family, although, I figured that was cheating so…

(Not in order of importance.)

1) Family

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This includes ALL my family–mom, sisters, my family angels–even if they aren’t pictured.

My mom raised me to be hardworking, believe in myself, independent, determined, & to always to my best.

2) Friends

My friends have been my second family, my employers, & my rock to lean on–without many of them, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

3) Writing

Here, I am free to express myself and get out everything that goes through my head when I have no one to talk to, I am able to grow, & currently, I am able to bring in a little extra income for my family.

4) Color

I am thankful for color as it brings more joy to life. We are able to see the changing colors and know that a season is coming or a peeking bud and know a flower is in bloom.

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5) Sleep

I am able to recuperate & continue on with my day & enjoy our boys. I am able to be healthy & watch our boys grow & develop into amazing men, like their daddy.

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6) My Marriage

Just months ago I would’ve said I was done, wasn’t going to care any more, & was going to find a job just so I could support the boys and me because I knew a divorce was on it’s way–not any more. My husband & I have been sticking through it all. We are stubborn and in love. We are both working hard on our marriage, the life we want, & taking care of our family. My husband has quit WoW. I have quit threatening him with divorce & been appreciating what he does more.

7) Food

Not for the obvious reasons but, because L & I have been cooking, he has been growing his independence and making his brother & him lunch. We have made muffins & brownies this week. & he helped me make hamburgers last night.

8) Medical Advances

I have glasses, have to be tested for PCOS, have 3 healthy boys, my husband is allergic to bees–as am I. & my body is screaming for a chiropractor soon.

9) Hot water/Laundry

I never appreciated hot water until my body was this sore & my clothes/myself would smell so horribly.

10) Human touch/intimacy

Holding my son, cuddling our older boys, snuggling up to my husband at night–they all keep me going. They let me know I am safe, loved, & help keep me warm.

All of these make my life so much better–shelter, heat, etc., they make it too but, these are the key things in life I could not live without.

Trying to control me like some kind of Barbie.

I am getting to the point where, I think, I am finally learning who I am. I am still learning, so don’t get me wrong. I am not exactly who I want to be. But, I am working on it. I am  not perfect by any means. But, I am learning to be myself and quit with all the silly people pleasing ways.

Believe it or not, I have been a people pleaser for so long, I think I was loosing myself. I sure I have lost myself a couple times to being who people wanted me to be. And then I got to the point where I didn’t know who or care who I was just I just did whatever. I am sure we have all been there. But, it’s true with the say that people don’t truly learn who they are until they reach their early twenties, because I have even hit twenty yet. I am not sure who exactly I am, but I am getting more comfortable just being myself. I’ve learned years ago just to make people like me or think I was cool. I felt like I had to lie to keep friends. But, you know, those few people who matter and I feel that most comfortable around, I haven’t lied to. I am getting more comfortable being exactly me and fessing up to mistakes. I am not proud of some things. But, I am not going to lie about it either. I’ll put myself out there, open book, and if you love me, GREAT! You’ll probably be one of my best friends. If not, I am okay with that now. I am done trying to make everyone happy. I am going to live life and do my best to be me, from now on.

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.