I am not sure if it’s the lack of sleep, stress levels, or what. But, I am losing it. I just wanna scream. I feel like going bald, oh wait, I am!! *sigh* This is all driving me insane. My life is falling apart at the seams. Cigarettes seem like a necessity now just to keep my stress level down and keep me going day to day, to keep me from losing it even more and possibly being really stupid about it.

I don’t know even it’s the holiday season, the whole single mom thing, or what. But, I am finally wearing thin. I am to the point where I don’t care what you think any more. I might love you and you might be my best friend, but if I’ve made mistakes and you can’t forgive me than forget it.

I am sick of idiots. I work with them. I provide service for them. I’ve dated them. But, I am done. I’ve taken it so far. But, I can’t do it any more. I lucky don’t live with any. And my family (who counts) aren’t idiots. My friends are idiots. I have a couple, but it’s ok. I am just done with the aceholes!

Sorry, I am done.

Since You’ve Been Gone…

It’s been 3.5 years… Almost 4. I feel like crap sometimes because it’s been so long and I’ve managed to make it this long. But, you know, I am come to realize that…

It’s not that it gets easier to deal with or you stop thinking about it, you just learn how to live with it.

Well, more later about this, I guess. I gotta get ready for work and I could use a smoke before. Plus, got the library and need to throw some food together for Landon.