Stuck in a Rut

I started watching Gossip Girl and although it showed me why I went to an alternative high school and skipped the college stage. Gossip Girl also showed me why I enjoy being a “nobody”. But, it hit a few other strings.

Watching Dan Humphrey write a book made me want to try my hand at writing again. I still remember the first story I began writing on a road trip and too this day it haunts me, as it could have become my life.

I would love to just write a book and write it all out, but I am not sure that I am meant for that. I enjoy my short snippets of “Hey. Here’s life. The End.”

I am realizing that I need more in life. I love being a mom, watching Netflix, hanging out with the boys all day, but a person can only take so much.

I mean, what is a girl to do? Sitting at home, watching children all day–I love staying home with the boys, but I told myself when I was 8-years-old that I would own a home and have tons of rooms for plenty of orphaned or fostered kids–years later and I am just as far from it as I ever was.

What do you do when dreams are so different? Children, school, work, friends, home… I would just love to feel like it is all amazing. I have had this empty feeling inside and I am still trying to figure out why.

I am married to a hard-working man with three beautiful children, yet some days, I have never felt more alone.

I need something to change–something amazing to happen. I need something to light me on fire.

Maybe it is time to go back to church and pray that I find it there. I just don’t know any more.

 

And off we go.

 

 

My apologies for being gone for the last 2 weeks–oye! Lots of things started coming up & it was give up one thing or another–the house took the toll at first and then my personal time and this last week–after getting sick, my personal hygiene took a ride down the crapper but, trying to get back up on the horse and get things going again. Had photoshoots & couponing trips–have a new job lined up for when we move–teaching couponing workshops, teach others how to coupon, going to the store and couponing for people, & once my boss gets everything lined up, could possibly be teach classes for a large corporation. I am very excited to be doing work that it is something I love & I can do from home. 6ea5404c-b7eb-4745-9bb2-d5e984ded962wallpaper

The two pictures of just a couple trips that I’ve made & the last two trips, they were beautiful trips! I was very, very happy with them. I can’t wait to get moved & get into a new place so that I can setup a room just for the stockpile & start stocking up on things again! Very exciting move coming up.

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Below is one of my photoshoots–my best friend said she would jump into the lake for me–in her wedding dress! 😀 It was so much fun! She’s such a beautiful lady!

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Just a couple of some of the other pictures. But, I have to run–laptop is dying & I need to get ready for tomorrow/this weekend–lots of packing to do, we move in less than 2 weeks. Can’t wait to get back to share with all of you lovely people. Just have to get this move & this sickness kicked, before it turns into ear infections.