Re: 2013 Resolutions & Loser Ways

Today I am learning. God teaching me some hard lessons.

It’s really is true. God doesn’t put you through more than you can handle. At the end of last month, I took on two projects at my freelancing job. Little did I know what I was getting myself into. After several attempts to understand the formatting and finally understanding it (most of it) today but, still feeling very overwhelmed, my boss shot me an email thanking me for come on when I did but, asking if I needed to be doing other stuff because I was making little mistakes. However, some were mine—while others were not. But, I was given another chance. So, I have this next week to just keep going what I’ve been doing. I made myself a checklist today and I am going to hold myself to high standards (like I usually have) and prove that I can do it.

In a way, it was a blessing in disguise. I wanted to cry because I was feeling like a horrible loser not being able to do to everything I wanted and needed to do but, God has blessed me with an amazing husband to pull me back to reality. Someone to tell me they love me, that I am not a loser, and that I am over extending myself. I would drive myself to hell before I ever quit, if it wasn’t for this man.

At the time that this was all going on, I was behind on everything and overwhelmed. I have been able to eat, get boys in bed, and shuffle laundry. Ryan did a load of dishes for me and had Landon tidy up. I know I can do this now. I am done over extending myself–or at least going to try to be done. I know have my Sundays empty and I can enjoy football evenings a lot more now.

I may not always see God at work when things are perfect but, I am beginning to.

If you had asked me last year if I thought any of my dreams (or goals) would have been completed, I would have laughed and said no.

My 22 New Years Resolutions for my 22 years alive were written on December 31st of last year. They included
1) Find out what we are having
2) Downsize, ALOT!
3) Move to Seattle
4) Get out of debt/more financially stable
5) Have a healthy baby
6) Figure out if we’re gonna do home or public school
7) Take the kiddos to fun places (zoo, museums, etc.)
8) More date nights with my hubby
9) Get a stronger marriage & get to know my husband more
10) Find a hobby for myself, something that I will enjoy doing (massage school, arts & crafts, etc.)
11) Start saving for a house
12) Get back down to my pant size after I have baby
13) Enjoy my kiddos & hubby
14) Plan/take a vacation
15) Potty train Landon
16) Eat healthier
17) Get my family & I exercising more
18) Try a new dish once a month
19) Try some seafood & hopefully find at least one I like
20) Get tattoo (with my hubby/our tattoo)
21) Knit/crochet my first item (& finish it!!, key thing)
22) Meet my hubby’s side of family

We have completed more than I could have ever imagined:
1) We found out we were having another handsome boy.
2) We got rid of enough to get moved–twice in 2013.
3) Ta-da! We did it! Almost didn’t make it this year but, we did!!
4) By the end of the year, we will be current on ALL bills and paid off our couches.
5) We had Mr. Zyren.
6) Still leaning towards home schooling but, haven’t decided quite yet.
7) We went to the park ALOT more. Once Ryan’s shifts get switched to nights, I plan to take one day where we go have a fun adventure.
8) We have had more movie night, more cuddle nights, more Madden nights, & planning date nights.
9) I have learned a lot about him in the last few months and our marriage is stronger than ever!
10) I have found a hobby–blogging.
11) We will start saving in the next 5 years–although we got a new house twice so, that does count. 😉
12) I’ve dropped weight!
13) I love time with my family so much! All the boys. They each have some unique activity that I love doing with each of them.
14) Planning a vacation for next year. Although, we did get some time off work when we first moved here.
15) Landon is totally potty trained!
16) We have started eating better. Salads, lots of water, apples, etc.
17) We walked this summer/fall.
18) I don’t know if I succeed with this goal but, it was fun to try.
19) Nope–not yet.
20) Soon–probably our anniversary next year.
21) I found my yarn this weekend.
22) I finally meet his mommy.

If you had asked me if I would have gotten all this done this year, I would have laughed and said, in my dreams. But, we’ve come so far and we’re only going to go farther!

Education

Well, it was another round of trying to teach my son stuff but, it is much like his mommy–he likes to learn on his own & he is a stubborn child. I am excited that we will have the real cable back soon & that we will have GOOD internet so that I can get the Learning App he likes on my phone so he can sit and play with it & learn that way. 

I tried to teach him some stuff but, he doesn’t seem interested. I think I may have to print it off and just let me flip through some of the stuff. Although, right now, he is coloring me a green apple so, we’re on our way to something but, just a little bit at a time, I supposed. Although learning isn’t as easy to teach kiddos as I had hoped–I supposed it’s like my sister trying to learn football and thinking PURPLE–see image below.

So, it’ll just be a slow process of trying to get him to understand different things but, for now, he does know his colors. He can count (if he chooses to) up to 10. He can make himself and his brother a sandwich. He has learned how to pour his own milk (if it’s not too full). He can dress himself and loves to help take care of his younger brothers. I think he is excelling in all areas, it’s just going to take a little bit of time to teach him some other things. And that’s okay. There’s no rush for my big stuff to grow up, I just have to realize that he is as stubborn (if not more stubborn) than his mommy (my own fault) and it’s a good thing. Just a pain sometimes–poor mom.